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So today i completed 1 of 4 large file conversions. Approx. 1116 lines of code was converted via my lovely hands. I have another large size file to tackle which is about the same length. As of right now that's tomorrow's project. I am struggling through these files because the conversion is extremely focus intensive and hence VERY draining.
Think of it this way, it's kinda like taking a test for the entire day. Every mistake is a bug you're going to have to fix later. This isn't bad though.
I'm looking forward to finally having this project done. I know it's probably going to take longer than i want it to, but there's almost nothing I can do about that.
"I won't let you fall apart." - NIN
I feel that way about all of my friends and it's hard to do sometimes. Everyone has their breakdowns from time to time, and there's not a whole lot you can do about them.
Now I'm going to go home and play video games and watch tv for an hour before going to sleep to come back to the lab at 9 in the morning. What a life huh?
I love life. It is what makes me happy :-)Current Mood:  accomplished Current Music: nine inch nails - the fragile |
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So I just got back from the movie Godsend and it was defintiely a good movie. However, it raises a lot of questions that Tab and I were discussing on the ride home. I mean is it really moral to make an exact copy of yourself or someone else? Is that playing God? Is it moral to make a copy of a child just because they were killed in a car accident?
All of this falls down to an opinion and a moral judgement call.
I think a VERY THICK line has to be drawn between this and stem cell research though. I think stem cell research is probably the best thing that ould happen in the way of genetics. I think it would be nice to stop diabetes from existing, or be able to tell someone who is blind they could see. Obviously this has to be done in moderation so that we are no becoming wreckless with our lives simply because we can replace anything. As they say, the extremes are dangerous, but it's hard to reach a happy median.
The topic of geniuses was also brought up, even if only off hand. I was thinking about it and I would love to meet a certifiable genius sometime. It would be even better to meet one in the field that I am interested in. I would LOVE to meet Knuth, one of the groundbreakers in computer science.
Computer Science is still such a young field that anyone can really make their mark with the right insight into a problem, or the right outlook on a situation.
All it takes is one genius to change the world. Don't believe it, then look at Newton, Einstien or Beathoven. All of them changed the world in a VERY significant way.
As everyone would, I would like to make my mark on the world. I would like to go down in history books fro something. I would care if it was something little like developing the first at home sanity test or something as large as the first conscious machine (which scares the shit out of me by the way).
I can't tell you how afriad I am of a conscious machine. Something without the ability to have morals, but the ability to reason and have emotions. This can only lead to BAD things. Anyway, I'm done rambling for tonight.Current Mood: contemplatative Current Music: Remy Zero - Save Me |
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Woot..... I would have to say today was extremely productive. I achieved my goals as far as my senior project is concerned and if all goes according to plan I should be able to get it finishede by the end of the week, but we will see how that goes. Anyway, beyond that I think that this weekend is going to kcik some seriosu ass. It's Ian's bachelor party and we're gonna go paintballing and to a titty bar so it'll be good! Anyway, I'm off for now time to make some steak and go to the movies!Current Mood:  happy |
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So the last 3 days of my life have been a little frustrating. OK EXTREMELY frustrating to me. I just can't help but feel like when shit happens it happens in HUGE waves. like a fucking tsunami of shit. So this weekend wasn't horrible. I didn't mind helping Ian and Kelley peel walpaper, and it wqas ok that the present I bought for my mom for mother's day absolutely can't work without more money, and I can even live with the fact that I didn't achieve my goal for today with my senior project. But the fucking speeding ticket I just got has pushed me over the fucking edge. All of it isn't a big deal alone, but all of this shit is just fucking pissing me the fuck off right now. It's no one's faut, it's no one's probl;em to fix, and it's all going to be fine, but as of right now I am resigning from existence for the next few hours so I don't seriously mame someone out of anger.
Rants are good... they help me calm down. $201.00 that I don't have, That's my big worry. shit happens though. Shit happens. life is on a down swing, but I can live with it, why? because nothing is big enough that I will stop smiling for an entire day.
A day without smiles is the day of my death.
I love life.... Even when it takes a big shit on me.Current Mood:  frustrated Current Music: NIN - Piggy |
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Today I graduated. It's been an amazing and wonderful day. Four year have passed in mere seconds to me. They say that life speeds up as you get older and years begin to turn into days that you forgot you lived. I'm beginning to worry that this isn't far from the truth. I started thinking about it as I was making my way back up to my room today and it makes perfect sense to me. I remember high school lasting forever and never coming to an end, or so it seemed at the time. Now I sit and think about what this next year will bring. I haven't had much of a chance to do anything that I have been wanting to do with resumes recently, but over the course of this weekend my plan is to get all of them printed and post marked to get the process rolling. I have about 25 places that I am sending resumes to, but I'm not sure that any of them will get back to me. Oh well though.
Moving on to the night. This evening was a slight inverted rollercoaster for me. I hung out with Ian and kelley for a while which was nice. I had some food at their place and it was good. Then I went to Tab's and ...... (this one needs a new paragraph)
Tab's parents just seem to rub me the wrong way for some reason. I don't know if it's a predetermined bias that I have because I only hear about all of the bad things from Tab or if it's a real personality clash. I hung out for as long as I could there, then I headed to Amy's Hot tub party.
Amy hot tub party was the shit. I IMMEDIATELY got changed into my swim trunks and joined the hot tubbing crew. Little did I know at this point in the evening that there were two topless chicks just chillin' out in there like it was no big thing. I hung out and had a blast just getting relaxing in the tub and being content with my life.
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So I'm sitting here in the living room on my laptop working on some random css stuff that has me intuiged (at least for the time being). Beyond that I feel insanely tired right now and I'm not sure why. I know that tonight is going to bring on some drinking and probably some drunkeness, but I'm not going to allow myself to get hammered. I can't get hammered tonight because I have to put in some solid hours on my senior project tomorrow.
All in all tonight will be interesting to say the least.
May. 6th, 2004 @ 05:59 pm
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| » Tooooo dee dooooo |
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So ihad about a beer and a hlaf in about 20 minutes, and the result was none too pleasant. I felt drunk for about twenty minutes, but then all of a sudden it wore off and I was left in a dissarray of lack of coherent thought. I'm still in that present state of incoherency, and I can't shake it. Oh well, tomorrow's another day!
May. 5th, 2004 @ 11:37 pm
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So... Had a gig a Benjamin's in Bangor last night. It seemed like it took forever to actually got to play with a bunch of people coming before us in the evening, but eventually we kicked out the jams.
More importantly than us just kicking out the jams was Holls. She was in a not so good modd last night and had me a bit concerned about her (ok more than a bit, but moving on). So when we started I watched her reactions to each of the songs and it seemed as though every single song we played just made her more and more smiley. It was the most rewarding thing I have ever had happen in my life. It was like someone did a frownectomy.
Beyond this the night was fairly uneventful. That was my last gig as a college undergarduate at the University of Maine, and I guess I'm kind of sad about that. I've really enjoyed my time here as an undergrad, and in a sick sort of way I want to stay up here over the summer. Biggest problem right now is the whole job and living situation, neither of which are resolved in any way shape or form. BUT, the way I look at it is this: I can work a Joe job over the summer to pay the bills all the while looking for a real job that will pay more than chicken feed :-p The tech industry in this area is almost non-existent, BUT I think if I can find some freelance web work I could support myself on that. We'll have to see what the future brings.
For now though it's time to chillax' a bit before going to visit Frye :-)
May. 5th, 2004 @ 10:43 am
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| » In the AI Lab |
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So I'm sitting in the AI lab right now attempting to find my motivation and it is just not working. I'm trying to keep motivated on this whole thing and it's being a realy bitch. I'm sitting here trying to edit a hidden file in Linux, and I have no friggin' clue how. Oh and it's kinda needed for me to do my prgoramming. Oh well though, life is a challenge and we can't ever give up :-)
Beyond this massive lack of motivation I have a little bit of worry about where the hell I'm going to live. I can live at Ian's for a bit, but the cable and internet are being shut off on the 17th, and they have no phone. So, I guess the old saying hold true in this one, "Beggers cannot be choosers." At least it does for me right now.
Life is good though. My mom has been keeping me updated with things from home, like my grandparents flying in to see me graduate and such (it's CRAZY!). I'm stoked about this whole thing though. The lack of responsibility for another few weeks. I mean all I have to do tonight is get my resumes all printed out and tomorrow I just get them post marked and call it happy! I'm hoping that at least one of the 20 or so places I apply will get back to me wanting an interview. We'll see though :-p
I've been thinking about my schedule for the month of May and basically I'm going home almost every weekend. I'm going home this coming weekend to bring stuff home and see the family for a bit. Then on the 22nd is Ian's bachelor party (I can't miss out on the boobies). Then the last weekend is Ian's wedding! There it is!!
Well back to work again.... Lack of motivation is bad :-p
May. 3rd, 2004 @ 12:57 pm
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| » Another good day |
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Today was a good day. I did exactly what I set out to do. I got paper for my resume's, a dvd writer (a new toy to mess around with), and I got to spend the rest of the day relaxing and hanging out with friends. Today was an awesome day.
We played a show with PFL last night (check em out if you haven't) and it was a good time. Went out to Friendy's with Meg, Nick and Reed afterwards. Ian and Kelley joined all of us and it was an awesome time. Nothing like ice cream on a warm day. Makes life nice,
After that we were supposed to meet Eric for the movie Godsend, but we saw the Punisher (excellent movie). I felt bad though because I felt like we didn't keep our word to Eric, but that's life sometimes, unpredictable at best.
Now onto the philosophy of the day: Friends are the one thing you can always count on.
Everything is good, and life is happy.
May. 2nd, 2004 @ 01:18 am
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